14 Ways Repressed Childhood Abuse Affects You in Adulthood

When you grew up in an incredibly abusive or invalidating environment, sometimes the way your brain and body learn to cope is by repressing memories. While this is a survival tactic that can serve children well in the midst of abuse, once the child grows up and leaves the abusive environment, repressed memories can resurface and affect mental and physical health in adulthood.

For some, the resurfacing of repressed childhood memories might mean an uptick in anxiety. For others, it might mean an increased fear of trusting others — or even trouble trusting themselves. Whatever your experience with repressed abusive memories looks like, we want you to know you aren’t alone.

We at the Mighty community wanted to know how repressed childhood memories of abuse can affect people in adulthood, so we asked members of the Might community to share one way their repressed memories affect them now.

Here’s what they had to say:

1. “I have extreme anxiety and frequent panic attacks about not having all the information and not knowing things. I constantly over-clarify and over-explain things. Not knowing what really happened to me drives me crazy and I obsess over trying to figure it out. I am extremely defensive and quick to anger and even violent because my fight or flight response is on a hair trigger.” — Amber R.

2. I have a deep-seated fear of being rejected, people leaving me and being insecure in every new situation. I have to plan out different scenarios and solutions, just in case something doesn’t go as planned.” — Mopfel F.

3. “I have vivid nightmares and am hyper-vigilant anytime I’m around people. I don’t know who to trust because I’m worried that someone is going to hurt me.” — Sarah H.

4. “I constantly second-guess my decisions because my father always criticized what I did or tried to do. Also I struggle with feelings of rejection and not being good enough.” — Melinda B.

5. “I’m very needy for things I wasn’t able to get as a child, such as attention or the amount of care I would have liked to have gotten as a child.” — Beth S.

6. When the [memories] started coming back, it made me feel like my whole life was spinning out of control. I couldn’t trust anyone or anything. Especially myself. There is a pervasive feeling of being unsafe and a gnawing sense that anything can trigger a new memory and debilitate you for hours or days.” — Monika S.

7. “I don’t like people because of the things I went through. And I’m angry all the time. I feel like I can’t be happy, even when I want to be.” — Joann S.

8. “I have no confidence whatsoever.” — Nicolla H.

9. I protect my heart because my childhood was stolen from me, so I want a better life now. But I push people away because I fear them hurting me before they actually do. It’s a never-ending cycle.” — Chelsea F.

10. “Certain places trigger me. I could be having a great day and then stumble upon a specific place [where] something significant happened years and years ago. It’s usually something I have no recollection of until I’m in that place. Emotions, flashbacks, fight or flight reactions hit me like a brick wall.” — Michaela S.

11. “I have a fear of failure, trust issues and in a sea of good things, I will find one that is bad and overthink it. I have the urge to know everything in advance so I can ‘prepare’ myself for it.” — Anahita H.

12. It completely changed my view of family. My repressed memories revealed I couldn’t and should not ever fully trust my blood relatives. I had been taught family was family no matter what and that you were always kind and loved them even if they didn’t treat you the same. I’ve learned from those memories surfacing that no one has the right to abuse anyone, regardless of the relationship. I now use caution when interacting with those relatives and have realistic expectations of their behavior. I also choose friends and co-worker relationships much more carefully. I am kind, but I am not naive.” — Amber C.

13. “I don’t trust people.” — Nathan A.

14. “The smallest things such as a simple word, or color, or sound, even taste, will take me back to that time. And my body, emotions and heart feel the way I felt in the past, and I start to panic because I can’t shake that feeling. And start to question everything around me. What do I deserve? Should I do this or that? Should I try? Then while my heart and mind race, I physically shut down. It has gotten better with therapy, but sometimes, some moments take me back and I can’t help but cry or nap to get away from the flood of emotions.” — Jessica V.

~Juliette Virzi,
The Mighty

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How are repressed childhood traumas (big T or little t traumas) still held in your subconscious impacting YOU now as an adult? I thought this was a wonderful article that shows some of the millions of ways that our wounded inner child continues to run our lives. Almost all of us experience it.

Did you know as an Inner Child Advocate I can help you? I get it, I feel like I’ve grown up to be the person I most needed as a child. Please let me know if you have any questions by texting me at 253-441-9963 or emailing me at yourstrongestlife@gmail.com. Remember, no question is a dumb question, only the ones you don’t ask. Do it for your inner child. I would love to hear from you!

Hugs!
Gwen

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Gwen Orwiler
Gwen Orwiler

Gwen Orwiler is an Emotional Freedom Coach & Inner Child Advocate. Through tapping, Gwen helps her clients release emotional wounds from their past, at a core level, so they can live their strongest life today.

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